Monday, 28 September 2015

I met Ron FUCKING Weasley!!

Pride of Britain Awards, September 28th.

Celebs don't interest me and I was out of my comfort zone ALL night, but the one photo I had to get was...

Ruper Grint!


Saturday, 26 September 2015

I'm a closet romantic...sshhhh

When you buy a guy a rose 🌹

"Thanks - but girls aren't supposed to buy men flowers"

"Oh, I didn't realise we were playing by anybody else's rules"

- Ungrateful

Thursday, 17 September 2015

WINNER of the 'Young Person in Business Award'

July 31st

Just got home from pitching for the East Midlands Chamber award for 'young business person of the year'.
I swear I didn't look this tired and windswept at the time (I hope)
And now.... We wait!

Sept 17th
And then I WON!

Friday, 11 September 2015

WINNER of ITV's Pride of Britain 'Fundraiser Award' - East Midlands

I was nominated for the Pride of Britain fundraiser of the year (East Midlands) award in 2015, which in all honesty was a great cause of anxiety (this face and voice were not made for TV), and I thought I had absolutely no chance of winning!

Then, Matt from ITV Central surprised me at work on September 11th with the award, and the surprise was aired on ITV Central news, as was my initial nomination interview!

You can see the video here

I then attended the Pride of Britain Awards - another source of MASS anxiety. Celeb culture is really not my thing. They do a job, why do we worship them??

I say this, until I am in the same room as Gandalf and Ron Weasley and then my previous comment goes straight out of the window...

Saturday, 5 September 2015

When the walls close in

Explaining what you’re thinking and what you feel when you’re ‘down’ isn’t easy. How do you put emotions in to words?

I prefer try to explain emotions like they are something physical instead.

Just lately everything has got on top of me and I felt pretty overwhelmed by it all. It’s easy for people to say, “why let things build up?” or “Just think positive”.
But it’s not that simple is it…? Because if it was surely I wouldn’t be in this position?


So, picture this.

You’re plodding along, minding your own business, living your life, but something feels uneasy.
You feel like something is happening behind you.
You turn around and look and something seems different but you can’t quite figure out what so you carry on.
But it’s there again, and you turn and… is that wall coming closer?
Can’t be. Surely I’d know.
And again, but you look, and… nothing.

And it feels like you’re in a cartoon where every time you turn your back the wall sprouts little legs and starts scampering towards you but every time you take a look it’s still again, stifling a sneaky little giggle.

But then out of the corner of your eye… you’re DAMN SURE you saw that wall move. Then the other side…
And now you KNOW they’re closing in.

 But it’s too late to make an escape plan now because they’re all coming at once.
And you panic.
So you just stop.
And the walls are coming closer still.
And you’re just sat
In the middle
Waiting for them to reach you.
Waiting to suffocate.

It’s only before the point of complete suffocation that the fear really kicks in. It’s like being a cornered animal and the ONLY thing that matters now is escape. So you lash out at anything standing in the way – or at least perceived to be.